Please Pray For Peace and Healing

Well, the screaming still hasn't stopped and last night I spent the entire night throwing up what little I have managed to eat over the last few days.... I am so exhausted and so is Peter. Please pray for God to give us a break from all of this.... I really am ready to just come home but we still have 10 days to go. I knew it would be hard and that he would grieve, but I had no idea it would be so unending and persistent. It's hard to imagine that he isn't tired of hearing himself as much as we are :) The good news is, that we know he was very loved by his yaya and mama and was so strongly bonded to them, and that is why he is grieving so heavily. Part of me feels guilty for putting him through this....

On the brighter side, Noah is starting to come to us for comfort which is a good sign and he has figured out that we are the ones to take him to the bathroom and to feed him, but he is still screaming at the top of his lungs non-stop when we are in the hotel. I think he realizes that this is where his life changed and it reminds him of that everytime we shut the door to our room. The only break we have is when he finally falls asleep.

Unfortunately, the traffic here is crazy beyond anything I have ever seen so even though walking outside calms him down, it's not very safe since drivers don't follow any sort of traffic laws whatsoever. Pedestrians are targets and the cars don't slow down at all if you are in the way. Lame markers are just for decoration as cars drive on whatever side of the street and whichever direction they please. Hence, going outside is very risky business. The sidewalks are just piles of rubble and there are giant puddles of pee everywhere you go since people just let their kids go on the street when the urge strikes... It certainly is an eye-opening experience being here in China. The province we are in now is one of the poorest in China and hygiene isn't exactly high on the priority list.

Yesterday we got to go to a local park with our guide and so we had a bit of a break pushing him in the stroller, but now he has some sort of cold and is coughing in between screaming too. It seems that we just can't get a break.....

Peter is gone today on a trip to see the orphanage and take a tour of Noah's village and see his finding place. He'll be gone the whole day as it is 3 hours each way. I miss him already and he's only been gone 1 hour.

Sorry to be so negative, but I am out of steam and just feeling pretty low right now. Please pray for us to make it through this experience stronger and more united as a family. Please pray for God to ease Noah's suffering and for him to give us patience to make it through this with him.